"This must be it, welcome to the new year..."


The first month of 2009 is almost over. haha. This is crazy. We're 1/12th of the way to 2010. Holy Sh!t.

I'm turning 19 in about 2 months. I can't even comprehend that. Last year of a teenager.(afterall, it's nine-TEEN.) Some would argue that I'm already an adult. (nah.)

This year I didn't make a new year's resolution(not sure if I did last year either), but maybe I should have, seeing as I sort of fulfilled something that would be worthy of one.

What am I talking about?
My crappy sleeping habits. The insomnia everyone knows me for, has been gone, for nearly 2 months.
Haha, that's kind of different.

Yeah. Something in Hong Kong like hit my "reset" button, and ever since, I've been able to wake up early in the morning, ON MY OWN, sans alarm. Yeah, I do mean early, not just "my" definition, like 8am early. AND, I would get tired at normal times, and be in bed before 1ish. 2 would be the absolute latest.

This was the best streak I've had in as long as I can remember. Feels kind of good having a normal sleep schedule. now I just need to start working out again.




now I'm totally jinxing it tonight, by being awake right now. -_-
I'll get up early tomorrow, try to sleep earlier than I am now.

maybe part of what was keeping me normal was I didn't do what I usually did late at night. staying up late, thinking stupid thoughts.
i'll indulge tonight i guess.








Beijing Freeway

Yeah, it's heavy out there
Do things change? Do we care?
Cause I can't still comprehend the meaning of life
Struggle and sin seeps in like a knife
Funny how everything never goes right
Everyday is the same thing with a new fight
It's kinda hard to believe everything's gonna be alright

Thinkin' 'bout back in the day when life was so simple
Didn't have to worry about shit when I was little
But now I'm grown,
I never would have known
In my life i could feel so alone
On the real, can you feel me? C'mon
Gotta move on
Only got one life to live
And it's not too long
I gotta take advantage of all that i have
All the chances that been given to me
Before they're gone
And there's so much that needs to be done
So I'll pray for you... I know I'm not the only one
Struggling with the pain, don't feel ashamed
Cause I know, one day we'll break away, and be saved
Even if your parachute is tearing soon
Even if you climbed these stairs and barely moved
Even if the light in your tunnel leads to your doom
Even if the only light in your life is the moon
Just keep your eyes staring straight up ahead
And never let despair hide, sneak up and strangle your neck
Just get ready, even if your chest feels heavy
Cause there are plenty of seconds to rest, never get lazy
And just face the facts,
Don't stray from the task,
Make this your chance
Don't relax, get yourself back on track
And hold on, be strong, and believe in your own
Cause it's gonna be alright
Believe that

"Oh squiggly line, in my eye fluid.
I see you there, lurking on the periphery of my vision.
But when I try to look at you, you scurry away.
Are you shy, squiggly line?
Why only when I ignore you, do you return to the center of my eye?
Oh squiggly line, it's alright, you are forgiven."

haha, ok, maybe I should go to bed.


ps. i wonder how long it would take me to save up for a used nissan 240sx with decent mileage. hmm.

So I've been back for a little while. Happy New Years. I'm a bit late, but eh. I always feel like the new year sneaks up on me, before I'm ready. I ain't down with that.
But whatever. 2009's here.

That's the IFC building. Tallest building in HK. Oh and it was the building that Batman broke into, grabbed that one asian dude(I forget his name), and jumped out and escaped with a plane. Yeah.

Man, I was only there two weeks or so, but I experienced so much. It was crazy. Maybe I should have kept a journal for each day, because now it's all too overwhelming to try and document, after the fact.
I feel so fobby now. Haha. At least my Cantonese is a bit better. I would love to study abroad in HK or China, just so I would be forced to speak it all the time, and maybe lose my ABC-ness.
It was funny though. When I was in Beijing, and at a mall/complex/market thing, one of the vendors, or actually, all of them were trying to get my attention to buy stuff. And when I was forced to stop at one, because my mom was looking at something, the vendor next to it, started speaking Mandarin to me. Since I don't speak a lick of Mando, I was lost, and she knew it. When she found out I was American, she immediately started inquiring about it.
"Oh, you like Obama?"
"How do you like America?"
"Do you like your American friends?"
I wasn't really in the conversing mood, since I was expecting that everyone just wanted me to buy something. But something about her sincere curiosity, made me think that it was her just being nice. Or maybe I'm just being stupid because it was a pretty girl.
I love that Americans are getting their rep back. Even if Obama isn't our savior, he's done way better than Bush has for us, and he's not even freakin' president yet.


Yeah. I came back pretty Asian. I got a haircut at a place recommended by my cousin in Hong Kong called, "Moca Hair", and I have to say, it is the greatest haircut I have ever had. They shampooed my hair! It was more like a massage. Then they blowdried, and the guy, just with a pair of scissors, just went to town on my hair. Skill. Too bad my hair wasn't long enough for anything drastic, but I like it. I'd like to grow my bangs out a little more. It actually doesn't look very different if I don't gel it. But once I do. F-O-B. haha. I wish I could gel it the way the hairstylist did. I have no idea how he did it! maybe it was all the preparation beforehand. oh well.
And I pretty much updated my wardrobe. My favorite, are my new jeans. They look so good.
Damn this is pretty vain, and stupid. but whatever.
The jeans I got were HK$360. Yeah. Not very cheap. These were good ones. Oh yeah. 1 USD = 7 HKD. So they were about 50 something dollars. But WAIT. I got it in a buy 1 get 1 free sale! NICE.
Yeah. Contrary to some belief, not everything is super cheap in HK. The really cheap stuff is the street markets, but there are a ton of actual stores, like Nike, Adidas, Levis, Gucci, etc. Yeah.
It can get expensive.

But I love the city.



It reminds me so much of New York. Parts of it look so much like Times Square, with the lights, billboards. But then there's all those neon signs. Asians love neon signs. haha.
I actually hate to compare it to any other city, because really, it's a city of its own.





I think I'm getting a little sick again. Which sucks. I got pretty sick on the trip. I was miserable for like 2 days, and my dad had to take me back and take care of me. Thanks bahbah.

So to make up for it, here's a cool story I came across.


"There once was a court jester who was known throughout the kingdom as a very smart, clever, and funny man. He had a knack for choosing the right jokes at the right time and was one of the only people who could make the king laugh. One day, however, the jester went too far and insulted the king in such a way that the joke was deemed to have treasonous intent and was therefore punishable by death. The king, feeling compassion for the jester, told him that he could choose the way he would die. Many people, without thinking, would have chosen a quick and painless death. The jester, however, had been practicing making choices his entire life. He paused to think for a moment and then replied, “I choose death by old age.”

You always have a choice."

I seem to get a lot of random hits to this page, from all over too. Different parts of the country, different countries, even different CONTINENTS. I think it might be when I put a link on my profile on the wong fu blog.

I feel sorry for the people who click it out of curiousity and just get to my babbling crap. Oh well.

Maybe some random person, who's going through some stuff, will read the story and be inspired. or something.

I'm out.

(Btw, did ya notice anything weird about the picture of my new fobbiness? Look again.

The secret is, I photoshopped the right half(my left). Because I took the picture in a mirror, but I hate how "myspace" mirrorshots look, I just copied the left side, and covered the right. The graphic on my shirt got a little distorted, but whatever. That's also why I had to erase the bottom right part. haha. So yeah. if you noticed things looked a little too symmetrical, there you go.

Don't lie. you didnt' notice did you. haha.)